2.08.2003

marvelous 3....can't beat that. don't IM me asking me what their best song is....just download um all, they dont have a best song lol they all kick.

SUGAR BUZZ

"Well I started this story in the middle of the page
I remebered the lines and forgot my age
When somebody said my attitude was snotty
That's when you called and said get out tonight
Catch a late night movie on a late night flight
I'll be getting real drunk and making fun of everybody
Ain't nobody gonna get me down
Something must've gone around
Hey

You can stick that sign up your ass
The one that says it won't last
My sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher everyday
Your sarcasm cuts like a knife
I'll have the time of my life
My sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher everyday

Oh well I went to a party last Saturday night
You know, I think I got laid then I got in a fight
I don't remember that much, but I think I liked it
I saw some band called Roses 'n Sockey
An' they brought back the rock and the
singer was cocky
Two years later I'm sure they'll forget about it
Ain't nobody gonna get me down
Something must've come around Yeah

You can stick that sign up your ass
The one that says it won't last
My sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher everyday
Your sarcasm cuts like a knife
I'll have the time of my life
My sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher everyday
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
You can stick that sign up your ass
The one that says it won't last
My sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher everyday
Your sarcasm cuts like a knife
I'll have the time of my life
my sugarbuzz is growing higher and higher"

my little buttercup....has the sweetest smiiilllleeeeee :-D omg my mommy got me princess diaries and sweet home alabama!!!!!!! MOVIE WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!! mwhahaha im so happy!!! and right now im watchin the three amigos!!!!! dude this rocks....lol i'm just gona take this weekend and not worry about all the shit that's goin on in my life. i luv u all!!!!!!!!! chiao

ahhh...study hall. what every gps girl lives for...i really need to go take one of my three tests...but im not really ready for um and then my spanish one...jeez...it was due like, a week ago...im so screwed if i dont get that taken on monday....but i really dont feel like takin it right now...and i have drums this afternoon and i've gota convince my mom to unground me for tonight cause there's a dance and i wana go.....god i hate my life sometimes...everything is so stressful...o well. chiao

music: leaving- the starting line
mood: ok

ok im happy again now :-D sometimes it just takes time to get over something....if tyler ever unblocks me, ok. if he doesn't, ok. :-D

Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By Growing.

i keep takin these...cause i didnt feel like going to school today...too shitty...and i have nothing to do but sit here and bask in my depression....wow that was poetic >.< i think rainbow brite is more of who i am usually...right now i feel like bitchy brite...is that a character?

im starting to understand what it's like to be majorly depressed...what its like to feel like tyler...i think this song is one that tyler had on his away message...but i dont care...i just downloaded it and its amazing how you can find music to describe your moods

"You Need A Hug"

maybe you should work for "sick of it all"
or get a job with the l.a.p.d.
did someone switch your ritalin with ephedrine?
Just don't take your fucking problems out on me.

I'd buy you a little fuzzy bunny
I'd put you on my x-mas card list
if you'd promise not to take your job so seriously
and realize you don't have to be so pissed.

life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
even if henry rollins is your dad.
life ain't all that bad. life ain't all that bad.
buck up litter camper, don't be sad.

maybe you could go hunting with ted nugent
and see how many animals you could kill.
I'd pay all of my friends just to hang out with you
and take you out to sizzler for a meal.

I'd take you to my favorite karoke bar
and you sing "let the sunshine in".
you could stomp my ass into oblivion
but that doesn't mean I'll put up with your shit.

(who the fuck is henry rollins?)

this...well...self explanatory:

You keep your problems deep inside.
You always play that game of run and hide.
Even though they told you to see is to believe,
It didn't take you long to know that looks they can deceive.

life sucks (so what else is new....). cant sleep...tyler wont talk to me...i just wana crawl in a hole and never come out. it's amazing how depressed and hurt one person can make you..i didn't know it was possible to be this upset and sad over a guy who is supposedly your best friend, but blocks you and calls you a bitch because you're trying to help him...maybe i shouldn't try to help him, but it's hard when he's as depressed as tyler is. i miss my tyler more than anything....i miss the way he was....but he's not comin back...and i know that. so i have to deal with what i have...but he's always so depressed and sad...and it kills me because i know how amazing he can be when he's not...he wont tell me anything...and i DID push it, i know i did and i know i shouldn't have...and he knows that im sorry...at least i hope he does...i had no idea he was going to go off and get pissed beyond belief at me...i just wanted to help...its part of who i am...i always help people...i hide my problems...and help them. im like a mini oprah. but to be honest....im tired of the way i am. i'm tired of helping and helping and trying and trying...and getting shit in return. i always end up getting hurt by the ones i love most....and im sick of it. i just wana change...i dont know what to do anymore. if anyone else does....please tell me?